In discovering that I am not living my life the way I need to live my life.
I need to put my life in order
God

Me

Wes

Kids

House

I need to do these things in this order because I believe that This is what God wants me to do.
I'll never be happy unless I do things the way that God wants me to because I trust and believe that he has my best interest at heart and he knows what is best for me.
In doing this I am finding things very frustrating. I am seeing just how lazy Wes is.
don't get me wrong he is a great provider, but that is all he does.
He doesn't help around the house, he doesn't spend quality time with the boys, He doesn't fix things around the house no matter how many times I ask him.
There is garbage all around out side of our house I have been asking him for a year to go to the dump. When he put the new flooring down on the kitchen floor he never did put the wall boards back up, which makes the cracks between the wall and floor fill up with food and dirt. I have asked him many times to do this.
A couple tiles fell off of our bathroom wall. He hasn't even attempting to fix this and I know if I don't do it, it will be this way for more than a year.
So this is the question that I have for myself. Do I accept that this is the way he is.. either do it myself or hire it done, in which I end up resenting him as I am doing now because I feel like he isn't doing what he needs to do.
Or do I continue bringing it to his attention, and not only feel resentful, I am upset because it isn't getting done.
I guess I just answered my own question.