I think I discovered my problem today while in prayer.
I have been so angry about being pregnant. I just don’t want to be pregnant. After trying all this time, I just don’t want to. I don’t want to be sick, I don’t want to do labor and delivery. I don’t want a needy newborn.
I think it hit me today that I am so mad/sad/depressed because I am really scared. What if I can’t do this?
What if my depression/anxiety is just as bad, or even worse. Despite all of my preparing and planning for it?
I am seriously scared.